A lot of friends and random people have been messaging me asking me about the NewPaper feature.
There is nothing to be congratulated about, but thanks.
This is the 2nd time I am featured.
But this time :
What was printed was bullshit.
Period.
I am not happy at all.
And am discussing with my parents about suing the paper.
Half the things printed are not true.
I said nothing of those kind.
New Paper has been known as a sensational paper.
Shit has been written.
I can't take it back.
I'm treating it as a lesson for the moment not to speak to any publishing company in private.
Thanks for informing me . And the truth is. I didn't even know the article will be featured today.
So, what are they trying to do?
Try to sneak it pass?
Anyway. I contacted the reporter and related personnel involved already. And will update my blog asap accordingly.
And, to the CS community, I know what has been said about me today when some of you saw my article while at CAPL.
Please be understanding this time.
The community has never given me much left to say in every issues that was involved in the past.
Please understand that this time, what happened was purely bullshit from the publishing company.
So for just this one time, please understand that this doing is not of mine.
Yes, it is my fault to accept the interview. But what has been written, once again, half was not of what I spoke.
I will be very thankful if consideration has been taken in, for the fact that the one affected the most is definitely me.
Verbatim "Uninvolved."
Love,
Kelly.
;;scandalQUEEN, just give me the crown.
1:10 AM
I just did something very very wrong.
I never said half the things written.
May today pass soon.
I never said half the things written.
May today pass soon.
;;scandalQUEEN, just give me the crown.
4:09 PM
Redoing my fucking template. Because I feel like shit. Thanks to everyone who contributed to my "hi,iknowkellyand,ohdoyouwanttoknowshitabouther,
becauseiamsuchastupidbitchslutasshole" club.
You know whats the fucking problem?
People that I talk to everyday, whom I whine to, whom I confide in, are the actual ones who sells me out, talk the most bullocks shits about me (Well, obviously, because they know more about me). Lmao. Be it my family ties, social life, band, gaming life, and those short term interests life.
Take my gaming life for example.
And I just realised today, (Well, actually yesterday)that both community is pretty same all and all. The politics, the roles of people in the community, (example: The worshiped, the worshipers, the expectation setter, the follower, the leader, the contenders, the attention whores, the drifters, and the 'common people' etc etc.) and the amount of complication involved in people's ties.
Anyway, I'm going overseas soonnnnnnnnnnnnn.
So, woopeedoo, whatever happens here, I can't be fucked.
Gaming WAS a big part of my life.
Now that I have out grown it, I'm glad I put it down easier than when I was playing CS.
I have no idea why I'm whining anyway.
Prolly taking this post down after a while.
Actually, now I know why it happens.
Whenever someone talks bullshit about me, so many suckers believe that "he said she said" shit.
Why? Because all along, they have been dying to find fault with me. So whenever something small comes out, people will make a big fuss out of it, which then triggers my weak point, which is my low sense of control over anger, proceeding in which me making a big fuss out of it, resulting in stupid senseless WorldWar3 ad hominem, which is really a logical fallacy.
And you know whats the sickest thing?
Those people that usually end up on the other side of the river are those I had previously either, stuck up for, aided, or concluded their problems.
That just sucks doesn't it.
Mmmm. :D
becauseiamsuchastupidbitchslutasshole" club.
You know whats the fucking problem?
People that I talk to everyday, whom I whine to, whom I confide in, are the actual ones who sells me out, talk the most bullocks shits about me (Well, obviously, because they know more about me). Lmao. Be it my family ties, social life, band, gaming life, and those short term interests life.
Take my gaming life for example.
And I just realised today, (Well, actually yesterday)that both community is pretty same all and all. The politics, the roles of people in the community, (example: The worshiped, the worshipers, the expectation setter, the follower, the leader, the contenders, the attention whores, the drifters, and the 'common people' etc etc.) and the amount of complication involved in people's ties.
Anyway, I'm going overseas soonnnnnnnnnnnnn.
So, woopeedoo, whatever happens here, I can't be fucked.
Gaming WAS a big part of my life.
Now that I have out grown it, I'm glad I put it down easier than when I was playing CS.
I have no idea why I'm whining anyway.
Prolly taking this post down after a while.
Actually, now I know why it happens.
Whenever someone talks bullshit about me, so many suckers believe that "he said she said" shit.
Why? Because all along, they have been dying to find fault with me. So whenever something small comes out, people will make a big fuss out of it, which then triggers my weak point, which is my low sense of control over anger, proceeding in which me making a big fuss out of it, resulting in stupid senseless WorldWar3 ad hominem, which is really a logical fallacy.
And you know whats the sickest thing?
Those people that usually end up on the other side of the river are those I had previously either, stuck up for, aided, or concluded their problems.
That just sucks doesn't it.
Mmmm. :D
-I just wanted you to know, how deep was my sorrow.
;;scandalQUEEN, just give me the crown.
4:39 AM
Don't push me.
I am not happy.
Don't force me to.
I am not accommodating when it comes to personal attacks.
I am not happy.
Don't force me to.
I am not accommodating when it comes to personal attacks.
;;scandalQUEEN, just give me the crown.
11:22 PM
Maybe because I'm sick of being victim and all,
That's why I don't feel a thing anymore.
I am not that he-said-she-said whatever or,
And I don't think I can take any other falls.
We could have been lovers,
We could have been more.
But ruined I had been by other men,
After plights that were irreconcilable.
Then as I lay down every single night,
And then tried fucking hard with all my might.
All of this I did not want to be,
But all of these I am shaped to be.
I am your highness,
I am your temptress.
I am your queen,
I am not someone within your means.
Don't seek me,
For find you will not.
After some hours and days in a daze,
You will find that your efforts are nothing but a waste.
With your flowers on the floor,
And your chocolates all out the door.
You will find that I'm nothing but a flaw,
Because I am such a tragic whore.
For find you will not.
After some hours and days in a daze,
You will find that your efforts are nothing but a waste.
With your flowers on the floor,
And your chocolates all out the door.
You will find that I'm nothing but a flaw,
Because I am such a tragic whore.
Love, kelly.
Dearest loves of my life:
I'm taking in Deep red sighs,
And all of your thoughts hit me.
You are hurting, you are cruel,
You are what I would never.
If I told you how much you meant to me.
Would that make you want to change your mind.
Cause I have never been more sure,
Where my love laid was here.
From the day I joined you boys,
Every note I played was all for you.
I could see us laughing by the pool,
I could see us side by side.
Holding hands, singing songs,
Just to be beside.
If I told you how much you meant to me.
Would that make you want to change your mind.
I have been all around,
But they ain't no other boy.
As fine as any each fucking single one of you,
Yet all of you gave me away.
Cried because I heard your whines,
Laid down and died together with bottles of wine.
Why the stab in the back,
Not like I have treated any of you bad.
If I told you how much you meant to me.
Would that make you want to change your mind.
Boy, all of you amaze me,
And make me wanna cry crazy.
Because I thought I meant something to you,
And I thought I would always stay.
But stay I won't,
For all I wanted was to have some love.
But stay I won't,
Because thoughts of me leaving you all shared.
If I told you how much you meant to me.
Would that make you want to change your mind.
Dearest Mark, Julian, Paul, Lucien.
Those are the last words I'm gonna write for y'all.
Loves, Maybe its time for me to grow up.
Maybe its time for me to go all out.
Maybe its time for me to path a way out.
But in my heart, all of you will stay.
And that is never gonna sway.
I tried to hold on, I tried to stay.
But the bond just went unsaid.
Hurt I am, broken I feel.
But nothing is gonna change the deal.
I cried just a day too late.
But everything has already started to fade.
I adore, that's why I pretended.
But I couldn't help it and was not contended.
I couldn't keep my pride in my pocket.
That's why we are ruined and I am crooked.
Loves, I adore all of you forever more.
But on the road to the top of the hill.
I tripped and none of you held on to me.
Love I will still,
But forgive is something I cannot steal.
Those are the last words I'm gonna write for y'all.
Loves, Maybe its time for me to grow up.
Maybe its time for me to go all out.
Maybe its time for me to path a way out.
But in my heart, all of you will stay.
And that is never gonna sway.
I tried to hold on, I tried to stay.
But the bond just went unsaid.
Hurt I am, broken I feel.
But nothing is gonna change the deal.
I cried just a day too late.
But everything has already started to fade.
I adore, that's why I pretended.
But I couldn't help it and was not contended.
I couldn't keep my pride in my pocket.
That's why we are ruined and I am crooked.
Loves, I adore all of you forever more.
But on the road to the top of the hill.
I tripped and none of you held on to me.
Love I will still,
But forgive is something I cannot steal.
Love, kelly.
;;scandalQUEEN, just give me the crown.
3:38 AM
St james sucked.
Ok, update on what happened on Saturday night.
After a flurry of events.
I asked around if st james was strict and if it's hard to get into.
Mostly everyone was like "Yeah, they check everyone, etc"
Being a first fresh spring chick into St James, I had HIGH expectency because of the reviews given to me.
We, namely, me, jiayi, cynthia, shan, solar and friends agreed to meet up at around 10 PLUS @ stjames.
So around 8.30 I was suppose to meet shan to go pick up Tammy's IC.
RIGHT. Then she DOTA LUH!!! IN the end 9+ met up.
So after cabbing down, we went to meet JY *loves* @ Dhobby ghaut, and proceeded to St james.
After spending a LITTLE* bit of time in the toilet, we met Elmo, and decided to queue up first (Note, it was already 10+). So, I was worrying about the entry, because I might not be able to get in, and already was quite ready to go to zouk.
But, WALLA!!!, they didn't check me. *grins*.
Cover charge 15$ for ladies only somemore!
For guys was 20$.
SO, in the end by 11+, the rest was not here yet.
So me, Elmo, JY, Shan, went to club a lil first. Had our first drink...
So FINALLY, around midnight, the rest arrived.
After getting in and blah blah blah and some grasshopper/vodka between the bar and the dancefloor, we were dancing and waltzing on the dance floor in no time.
So the 4 of us girls happily dirty danced each other.
Then we @_@!!!
Got people bartopping in the RNB section.
Ok the Music SUCKED.
And so did the live band.
The DJ was fucking irritating with his constant irritating incessent words.
But, being alcohol driven, and several nods and winks later, I went up.
Fuck, and the girls PS me!
YA, ok wtf, I went up happily, then the girls were looking up at me. YOU KNOW HOW FUCKING HIGH THE BAR TOP WAS?
Its fucking 1.2m high can.
Then guess what I was wearing,
This super short black skirt can.
WTF.
Then when I climb was half gone.
When I dancing on top even more gone.
So this, large size girl who was already on top started to dirty dance me for a bit.
@()*#@)(!*#@ she pulled my necklace inclined to her.
WOOHOO. I fucking turned on . Oops.
So I made alot of 'tongue language'
luhsssss.
Got down after being damn pissed with the girls looking at me from below and I felt helplessly alone :x
Well, but got up again after one glass of drink. LOL.
We were trying to see if we could get on stage instead of the bartop cause the bartop a bit small.
And its so high up !
So anyway, the bouncer looked a tard too big for our own liking, so we skipped the idea...
Then... after being upset because I couldn't see my pretty Butterfly,
I went...
Up again.
And they...
Stayed down again..
*(@#&(@*#(&@!* CHEAT MY FEELING X CAN. NABEIII!!!!
Anyway, loved clubbing with them, and been awhile since I partied ever since the NYE's house party.
Yay. Loving it.
Zouk @ Saturday.
Call me / Mail me for details.
I'll buy you drinks, if...
I fancy you enough...
Example, that pretty Butterfly in the middle, doing his le'fatale dance of seduction...
Alright, Peektures!
(If the boys all wrote us a symphony, I don't think it can describe how sweet we would be...)
(KANE(solar) LIKES BEING IN THE LIMELIGHT!!!)
(And, because baby, you know you want to take us home tonight.)
;;scandalQUEEN, just give me the crown.
11:32 PM
Its not like I treated ANY of you bad.
I treated all of you like my own.
My flesh, my blood, my bones.
My bitter disappointment. My deep resentment.
Was I really a nothing to all 4 of you.
Did I just made up the pact we made, myself?
_
There's this one.
The one that loved.
The one that gave.
The one that stayed up all night with me,
And in my sorrow, he helped me to be,
Someone that became the stronger me.
_
How about you,
The one that left,
The one that took my world away.
You just took off in a flight.
And with those harsh and cold words,
You strike my world apart.
_
And then there is him.
After so many years later,
He came back. And it seems like what happened 3 years ago,
They were childish acts.
And now that we've all grown up,
We look at each other,
And we agree that our eyes tilt a different light.
_
And now there is you.
You rather take another girl that have forsaken you.
And yet, after so long of games and the rounds we gone through,
You chose to left me, but not you,
You I blame not. For fate is a cold hearted whore.
_
All of you, all of you are my fatal attraction.
All of you, all of you are my bitter irony.
Incurring my bitter disappointments, my deep resentments.
And I can't seem to stay clear either.
If I steer off, all of you come hurrying after me.
I don't want a part, in this tragic tale of mine.
I'm not a toy, and I don't have time.
To listen to your sorrows, or to hear you cry.
Tell me straight up. Do I still have to mime.
8 different boys, yet 8 equal heartaches. Each striking in their own way.
Each like a hurricane to me. Came like a beauty, left like a devastating whore.
Each like a hurricane to me. Came like a beauty, left like a devastating whore.
;;scandalQUEEN, just give me the crown.
9:09 PM
Tonight Zouk has Dave Seamen. (LOYAL ZOUK-ERS WILL SURELY GO!)
But alot of my homies going to MOS >:(
Then Butterfly says tonight @ ButterFactory got Uniform party. WOOHOO?!
Then Cynthia jiou me go St James Powerhouse
SHIT OR?
WHERE SHOULD I GO
And I'm super excited because I've been watching a whole afternoon of shuffle videos and I think I can do a better shuffle than my last one. HEHEHEHEHEHE. Kick is damn zai X. Must learn that one.
WOOHOO. WHERE TO GOOOO. X_X
CANT DECIDE.
PS: I cant decide if tonight I should dress for dirty dancing or for shuffling~
:I Then Cyn says don't wear skirt or else can't bartop dance.
HMMMMM
;;scandalQUEEN, just give me the crown.
5:58 PM
0 Comments and& still I convlused.
Woohoo.
You proved every single fucking person who tried to bring us down right.
You proved my parents right.
WOOHOO.
From the start of the relationship, till the end, and until now.
You lie.
Whats so fun about it?
Cant get laid? Cause they say lying is the most fun a girl can get without taking her clothes off.
How about you?
[;
At least be clever, cover your tracks.
LMAO.
Kyle, you make me want to laugh at you and tell you how stupid you are.
You never learn do you?
Not that it matters to me anymore.
I think I have more important things to do [;
Why am I writing about this even though I say it doesn't matter anymore?
Because you made me look like the fucking asshole when we broke up.
Woopeedoo.
Have fun in the states, or wherever you told me you WOULD be.
So yesterday damn cute.
Met the New Paper reporter named Joyce.
She's really nice yeah.
And she kept insisting want to come to my house to take pictures -_-
I don't know why.
After that Mark called and was like "Where are you, btw I don't think I can meet you for drinks tonight cause I'm abit tied up."
I'm like "I'm at town, why not"
"Cause I'm playing WOW."
"@#*(^!@*(#&!@*(#&!@*(#"
"..."
"COME DOWN NOW"
To my surprise, he was like, "Ok, I'll come over now"
WTF?
HAHAHA. Turns out he was playing Burning Crusade for the whole day and he was really god damned bored playing it (If only someone thinks that way too).
So after the interview, I walked around with her, and we shopped a lil.
After a while I met Mark, and was instantly in a better mood.
So we walked around abit, and wanted to eat the Cold Ramen thing again.
Walked to Cineleisure, and realised the show we wanted to watch is at 11+ . NOOOO.
Was around 6.10 @_@.
Then we grabbed a movie last minute with me cutting Q. HAHAHHAHA.
Watched Kungfu Mahjong 3 @ 6.10 HAHAHA.
The show is so lame it is funny.
Better than the past movie I watched with Mark. Eg, Curse of the golden flower, and The Wicker Man.
(After the Wicker Man, we swore not to watched another PG horror/thriller show. WHY? Go watch the Wicker Man and you will know. We practically laughing our asses off throughout the whole movie. The funniest was definitely the part where the woman face was painted with blue and white paint.)
After that, met Julian to eat the Cold Ramen. Shit la. Mark lied to me or. Said the normal potion very little. I didn't know cause the other time I ate the rice bow. :(
In the end the big potion so god damned big. And I added so much wasabi :( SO HOTTT. >< Then they kept laughing at me.
Shito.
So walked around, and we seem to bump into people we know everywhere we go. In the end, ended up at Prinsep jamming -_-.
Talked a lil, and bumped into R syndrome and feelthePAIN peeps.
Kinda miss the CS scene :(.
Then went to watch some show with THE ROCK. @_@ Called Gridiron Gang or something.
WAH LAU.
I didn't get to see my pretty Butterfly @ MOS :(
I just seem to bump into everyone else except the pretty Butterfly. :(
Oh well.
Yeah and squall was like, "FUCK LA MY CONNECTION SUCKS, KEEP DC FROM MY WAR3 GAME"
I'm like "Starfucks?"
"YEAH, STARHUB LA."
-he dc.s-
"STARFUCKS INDEED"
"Singnet's worse, I dc 20+ time when its raining at times."
::] -=*うちはサスケ*=- [:: - お前が開眼すれば... オレを含め万華鏡写輪眼を扱う者は三人になる... says:
you hear my jesus
::] -=*うちはサスケ*=- [:: - お前が開眼すれば... オレを含め万華鏡写輪眼を扱う者は三人になる... says:
me*
::] -=*うちはサスケ*=- [:: - お前が開眼すれば... オレを含め万華鏡写輪眼を扱う者は三人になる... says:
stop pissing down your fucking pee
::] -=*うちはサスケ*=- [:: - お前が開眼すれば... オレを含め万華鏡写輪眼を扱う者は三人になる... says:
zzz
"HAHAHAHA"
Anyway, Media for gxl!
Vote for your games. Esp Counterstrike 1.6 and Gears Of War!
Voting website
Info on Gears Of War (Wow @ prizes)
PS: Referring to my last post,
ark says:
prevent rape sia HAHAH
ark says:
1) don't go out at night with ever
PPS: MY brother is mad. He keeps singing "INDIAN CANDY SHOP" next to me playing the Xbox. "... ... ..."
;;scandalQUEEN, just give me the crown.
2:02 PM
Mum and dad was nice, dropped by to see how I was doing.
April was nicer! (Shes my aunt, young or!) Haha.
She bought some excellent supper for me.
Chicken chop and seafood pasta.
Apparantly I saw the reciept inside the bag, guess what, for this 2 pack of lousy stupid food its 50$!
So I was abit 'paiseh' and fished out my wallet to pay her. But she was like "no need la"
Aww.
Not that I am complaining but seriously, its not worth the price.
Oh yeah, then she bought extra cheese cake and brownies, peach tea, and passion fruit tea.
Wtf. Think I camping or? :x
But still, I am happy.
My toes are hurting from the heels :(((!
Anyway, Insomnia is back.
Hmm. Nothing much more I guess.
And I am concerned about the new issue about AIDS.
Gotta blog about it soon.
Oh yeah, did I mention? Buy next Sunday's New Paper.
20th Jan I think.
Why?
Yours truly is on it of course.
HEUEHUEHUEHEU.
PS: I gotta stop my mother from bringing the magazines I'm on around. Its getting a tard too embarrasing :x
Oh yeah, and.
A lot has been said about how to prevent rape. Women should learn self-defense. Women should lock themselves in their houses after dark. Women shouldn't have long hair and women shouldn't wear short skirts. Women shouldn't leave drinks unattended. Fuck, they shouldn't dare to get drunk at all.Instead of that bullshit, how about:If a woman is drunk, don't rape her. If a woman is walking alone at night, don't rape her. If a women is drugged and unconscious, don't rape her. If a woman is wearing a short skirt, don't rape her. If a woman is jogging in a park at 5AM, don't rape her. If a woman looks like your ex-girlfriend you're still hung up on, don't rape her. If a woman is asleep in her bed, don't rape her. If a woman is asleep in your bed, don't rape her. If a woman is doing her laundry, don't rape her. If a woman is in a coma, don't rape her. If a woman changes her mind in the middle of or about a particular activity, don't rape her. If a woman has repeatedly refused a certain activity, don't rape her. If a woman is not yet a woman, but a child, don't rape her. If your girlfriend or wife is not in the mood, don't rape her. If your step-daughter is watching TV, don't rape her.If you break into a house and find a woman there, don't rape her. If your friend thinks it's okay to rape someone, tell him it's not, and that he's not your friend. If your "friend" tells you he raped someone, report him to the police. If your frat-brother or another guy at the party tells you there's an unconscious woman upstairs and it's your turn, don't rape her, call the police and report him as a rapist.Tell your sons, god-sons, nephews, grandsons, and sons of friends that it's not okay to rape someone.Don't just tell your women friends how to be safe and avoid rape. Don't imply that she could have avoided it if she'd only done/not done x, y, or z. Don't imply that it's in any way her fault. Don't let silence imply agreement when someone tells you he "got some" with the drunk girl. Don't perpetuate a culture that tells you that you have no control over or responsibility for your actions. You can too help yourself. Rape is not about sex, it's about control and power, and what kind of power comes from taking advantage of others? No power anyone should ever desire.If you agree, repost it. It's important.
Loves [;
;;scandalQUEEN, just give me the crown.
1:06 AM
Confused? Don't be. I confuse myself at times too. (Did I just say at times? ... hmm...)
Ok, so I am mad. Shito.
I haven't been having a drop of alcohol since what, Saturday?
And I seriously need to party.
So Cynthia was saying we should party on Friday.
So did the band.
But we prolly won't go around doing it anyway, because everyone is like half and half.
That pisses me off, really.
Not because I'm gonna be whiny or whatsoever, but because now that they mention it, I am aching for it.
Like Cynthia was telling me about pole dance. Sigh...
Anyway,
I got a new Qipao (is that how you spell it?). Its like gold in color. So, yeah. And its pretty tight too. I wanted to take M cause I wasn't very confident, but the 2 ladies were like "NO. The S is SO MUCH better, its suppose to be tight, so it can show and emphasize on your curves."
Sigh. The only curves I see nowadays are my
*WHINES*
Ok, so skip that whining part.
Yeah, then I dropped by playworks to grab the mag. And guess what.
I'm goddamnedfucking pissed. WHY.?
Cause I look at T3, and I look at Jamie Yeo, I feel E.M.O. That is Emotionally Murderous Overloading for you.
She is already so god damned pretty and they still photoshop her. Why can't they photoshop me?!?!?!??!.
IS THIS A CONSPIRACY TO MAKE T3 SELL? (T3 and playworks are sister/brother kinda magazine publisher)
HMMM. This was what happened when I first saw playworks, then T3.
Thats Jamie there mocking me on T3's cover. :(!Well, I'm at Julian's with Mark so obviously theres no photoshop in his com. So I did this ehuehuehue Paint picture.
Well, like seriously, there is nothing to do in Singapore AT ALL.
QWEI()!@*#)@#*)!OWEREWREWR.
I am seriously stuck with nothing to do.
Can someone introduce me something to do besides loitering around, sitting at coffee clubs for hours at end, reading, cooking, clubbing, movies, shopping(actually, scratch that, shopping IS something.), looking for good food, sports, and absofuckinglutely not church/ (No offends to Catholics or Christians out there. But apparently the band thinks its funny when they keep mentioning going to Church when we are brainstorming and I am tearing my hair out thinking of what to do.)
So, PLEASE. PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE tell me what else can I do.
Ah, can Mark just finished his National Service's checkup.
Have I said this before? Well I think I haven't.
You know Mark's is doctor certified to be ALLERGIC TO TREES?
I mean. Wtf man, with that, he can probably be PES C anyway.
And we were like, "What if the doctor waves a leaf sneakily behind you while you are doing the checkup? And you don't sneeze or cough or w/e."
He was like, "Then I'm fucked lah."
HAHAHAHAHAH.
So anyway. That sneaky bastard got sorted to PES C anyway.
He was PES A before they went through his medical papers.
I mean, he was an ex water-polo player for his school yeah.
:I
Yeah, and now we are gonna head up to eat at that cosy restaurant.
The cold Ramen is goddamned nice.
So, yeah.
Remember, name places / things to go / do.
KTHXBYE.
Loves. Latorz.
;;scandalQUEEN, just give me the crown.
7:10 PM
0 Comments and& still I convlused.
I need someone to move my world.
Would you?
If you are reading my blog, then you mean something to me.
Make a difference. Move my world.
;;scandalQUEEN, just give me the crown.
6:57 PM
i love you.
;;scandalQUEEN, just give me the crown.
3:04 AM
I cant sleep after drinking so much fucking alcohol and its fucking with my mind.
I cant sleep after what you said hurt me so god damned fucking much.
Don't treat me like a fool.
Don't treat me like I ever accused YOU.
You make me feel like I'm nothing but a perfect
.;;tragic whore.
.;;tragic whore.
;;scandalQUEEN, just give me the crown.
7:56 AM
0 Comments and& still I convlused.
You are right.
I am a nothing
I am a nothing
Now, Would you get out from my life.
You break my heart. Really.
;;scandalQUEEN, just give me the crown.
4:43 AM
They say I don't know how to love.
And neither do they know how to love me in return.
They say my heart is made of ice.
They say my eyes are full of lies.
And neither do they know how to love me in return.
They say my heart is made of ice.
They say my eyes are full of lies.
I'm defeated.
My winning streak broke. I lost.
You fuck with my mind.
I love my sick games.
They push me to the edge and remind me that pain keeps me alive.
My winning streak broke. I lost.
You fuck with my mind.
I love my sick games.
They push me to the edge and remind me that pain keeps me alive.
;;scandalQUEEN, just give me the crown.
3:42 AM
0 Comments and& still I convlused.
Lucky I was brought for a nice dinner. And then some movie and some hanging out with the boys.
Awesome. Although Mark couldn't make it cause of dad :[
Screw up, all the communities are the same, be it CS or DOTA. Hahaha. And got some pretty surprising news. Turns out someone was selling me out all along.
Have fun, cunt :D.
Oh anyway, my mag spread is out. Yay?
;;scandalQUEEN, just give me the crown.
2:31 AM
So, we were making fun of jiayi (Sorry baby !), Once she changed her nick, I changed my nick to HER nick. HAHAHA. Then xiaoke and jb started to change their nicks too.
And, they were talking bout the time they went for steamboat. She ate 2 fish balls and said she was full. HAHAHA.
STEAMBOAT FTW TML!
I think I made Tammy dropped alot of hair today. Hahaha. Don't ask me why. @_@
So after work, Julian was nice to pick me up for some dinner. Had some nice food that we discovered by accident. The food was superb. Servings nice. Like, home cooked Pernakan (However you spell it)food.
Then we had some awesome B&J!!!! And he was nice enough to send me home :DDD
Not gonna disclose the place, as I think the services was also 10 stars because there was only 4 of us in the restaurant. HAHAHAHA.
So anyway, I miss mark la :( Hes working and stuff.
And we are having band so little :( So its like we keep on going on separately. Sigh.
Anyway,
[01:40:49] <+[nV-`]> huh lux is a guy rite
[01:40:53] <@WandeRz-> WDF
[01:40:54] <@WASURENAI> Yeah duh?
[01:40:56]
[01:40:57] <@WASURENAI> Then girl?
[01:40:58]
[01:40:59]
[01:41:00]
[01:41:01]
[01:41:03] <@JuHuaTai> wad map now
[01:41:04] * Quits: Snow (~asd@bb219-74-172-163.singnet.com.sg) (Quit ())
[01:41:04] * @Jiayi` slaps fez- around a bit with a large trout
[01:41:07] <@WASURENAI> Cyn :(
[01:41:07] <+[nV-`]> [01:39]
[01:41:07]
[01:41:08] <+[nV-`]> gay
[01:41:09] <+[nV-`]> gay
[01:41:09] <+[nV-`]> gay
[01:41:11] <@Jiayi`> POKEMON
[01:41:14] <@WASURENAI> Jiayi reject me...
[01:41:14] <@WASURENAI> :(
[01:41:19] <@WASURENAI> ?
[01:41:21] <@WASURENAI> I AM KELLY?
[01:41:21] <@WASURENAI> I AM KELLY?
[01:41:21] <@WASURENAI> I AM KELLY?
[01:41:22] <@WASURENAI> I AM KELLY?
[01:41:23]
[01:41:23] * Quits: zD` (abc@bb219-74-246-82.singnet.com.sg) (Read error to zD`[bb219-74-246-82.singnet.com.sg]: Connection reset by peer)
[01:41:24] <@WASURENAI> WTF _|_
[01:41:25]
[01:41:26] <@WASURENAI> FUCK YOU LA
[01:41:28] <+[nV-`]> LOL
[01:41:29] <@WASURENAI> HAHAHAH FUCKING STUPID
[01:41:30] <@WASURENAI> HAHAHAHA
[01:41:31] <@WASURENAI> I GOIGN TO BLOG
[01:41:32] <@WASURENAI> HAHAHAHA
[01:41:33] <+[nV-`]> o man
[01:41:33] <@WASURENAI> ABOUT THIS
[01:41:34]
[01:41:35] <@WASURENAI> HAHAHAHAHAH
[01:41:35] <@WASURENAI> NERD
[01:41:36] <@Jiayi`> y gay
[01:41:36] <+[nV-`]> when did u change nick
[01:41:45] <@WASURENAI> Baby
[01:41:47] <@WASURENAI> He thought im lux
[01:42:04] <@JuHuaTai> lets play riddles
[01:42:05] <@Jiayi`> haha solar pwnX
[01:42:35] <@WandeRz-> ...
Jokes :x Nerd envy. Lmao.
;;scandalQUEEN, just give me the crown.
4:02 AM
Nope, I didn't get wasted.
Its been long since I saw an Asian guy with a nose as perfect as that.
Absofuckinglutely gorgeous, if you ask me.
I realised that all the clothes I have bought for the past 2 weeks have all been long sleeve.
For a reason of course. The cuts are damn ugly X_X.
Gonna hide them for a year, and I ll swear off skimpy clothes. Hahahaha.
I need to change my blogskin.
Well, school started for everyone.
My boys have no time for me anymore :(
Lulu, paul, and julian have started school, Mark is gonna play Burning Crusade (FUCK WOW) which means he will have no time for me.
WHO'S GONNA WATCH SILLY MOVIES WITH ME?
WHO'S GONNA COME OUT 3AM IN THE MORNING WHEN I AM SAD OR JUST PLAIN BORED?
WHO'S GONNA DISS ME FOR HOURS?
WHO'S GONNA GO FOR TEA WITH ME?
FUCK LAAA WHO WHO WHO WHO WHO.
Nooooo :(
:I
I am NOT happy at all.
I NEED LOVE, but Lucien claims I just need to get laid. NO? I DON'T.
And uh, China girls are so cheap, I swear. She is so clingy to him.
HELLO? You are not ANYWHERE fucking within or even near our league, so, duh? Fuck off.
December is gone. My favourite month of the year, where the days are dull, and everyone is so busy with their own stuff they don't bother me with trivial stuff.
I like my days dull and gray.
Oh my bitter green December, I have to wait painstakingly for another 11 months to go by till I see you again.
I'm missing you already, with the shit cunt weather that makes me feel that even the afternoons seem inviting for a good nap.
I'm having Insomnia again.
And,
Wheres the answer? Is this forever?
Okay and something personal,
-it seems like you're not gonna come back from the States any time soon, and since things are already complicated as it is, and judging from the way you is treating me and talking to me (which is absolutely none at all). I guess its time to REALLY move on.
Thanks for the relationship and I hope you find someone who loves you more than I did.
Have fun, and don't lose yourself along the way.
Happy 2007, love (:
Its time I learn how to walk on my own again.
Thanks for the relationship and I hope you find someone who loves you more than I did.
Have fun, and don't lose yourself along the way.
Happy 2007, love (:
Its time I learn how to walk on my own again.
On a brighter note though, I might join Mark in burning Crusade, LMAO. If I am REALLY desperate to fill my days.
And Mark said I played awesome for yesterday's random jam. HAPPY!
Oh yeah, and DOTA 6.39 not bad! Quite fun. And the new hero can chain heal --"
PS: Happy birthday Cynthia [;
;;scandalQUEEN, just give me the crown.
12:24 AM
Asking him what I should change, looks wise.
And the best way to slim down. Like, I want to drop to 45 kg X_X 49 kg sounds heavy.
I tried everything before, diet pills, proper diet, and alot of exercise, but nothing works.
So I asked if I should have plastic surgery (LMAO.)
After complaining and whining for a long time, he said
"Dont need to change anything about yourself," quote verbatim "ni zai wo de xin zhong shi zui mei de" (You re the prettiest and my heart".
WHOA. I am happy.
Hahahaha.
Dearest people,
Love 2007, because there is me in your life.
Which means alot more colors to the boring, monotone life we are leading.
Loves,
Kelly, your residential Scandal Queen.
Happy 2007.
Kelly, your residential Scandal Queen.
Happy 2007.
;;scandalQUEEN, just give me the crown.
5:23 AM
One of the best in a very long time.
Amount of alcohol taken in = lungs burning.
Amount of time I danced = sore legs.
Amount of drunken deeds done = uncountable.
Lets not elaborate shall we. (:
Anyone who missed it should regret it for the whole of 2007
;;scandalQUEEN, just give me the crown.
8:46 PM
(One1)I was born on the 05th of December, in the 80s.
(Two2)You can e-mail me at: kellymilkies@gmail.com
(Three3) Stop ripping my writings. Ain't you ashamed?
Harder To Breathe - Maroon 5
